Friends

Reading through old blogs and i've decided to copy a recurring theme.

Parveen:
Always makes me laugh. I can talk to her about anything and she's give me advice. When im with her i dont have to worry about what i say or do, i can just have fun.

Hannah:
We seem to be in a constant fight about... im not sure what! WE ARE NOT FIGHTING!!!!! lol
we can talk for ages about nothing at all, have very in depth conversations and about fit guys.

Jazz:
puts up with me no matter what my mood is like. Listens to all my problems, and helps me laugh at them. Gets my slight CCF obsession!

Greg:
Can make me smile whatever my mood is. We have such jokes in drama, yes its mainly flirting and rape!! the only person i can have a conversation with for three full days!

David (rammy):
Oh Dear... makes me laugh. i dont know him that well but would miss him if he disappeared.

Ed:
Some times gets too much, but i wouldnt swap him. Makes me feel better when im sad and always makes me laugh at CCF.

Mattie:
RAPIST!!! :P

erm.... who else.... if i've missed you off im soooo sorry!!!! x

i couldnt think of a name... i lied, GET OVER IT

do you every get days when you wake up and your happy? well i do, unfortunately my mood seems to go downhill the minute i get it to school, and its not because of school work. its because i seem to be the one who gets all the shit and get its not my fault.

Most people puts up a shield, to protect them from all the crap you get from people. for some people its being 'Hench', others do loads of sport. for me its being ditsy and flirty.

im not stupid, and im not a whore.

and i hope that my friends know that, but apparently they dont.

I get stressed because im not allowed to be one person, i have to change depending on whose around or where i am and then people give me shit for it.
i dont go i to a bubble, i just have to change who i am because you change who you are and im not going to make a fool of myself. its nothing to do with hannah! she is one of my best friends, its you your the one who changes and then tells me off!
and i realise i flirt with the guys its because they dont take me seriously, just because everyone likes you for who you are doesnt mean its the same for everyone. so if you've got a problem with how im acting dont just ignore me, tel me whats wrong because then i can either explain or change, again.
x

Round the World Tour (to wales and back)

Monday:
Went to Henley to see my Grandperents.
The vist consisted of my Grandma bitching about all of my family! Such fun!!!

Tuesday:
Drove to Bath.
Booked in to a nasty B'n'B, the towels were dirty and the blind above my bed was broken.
Went to the Jane Austin museum, waste of time.
Went to the Roman Baths, intresting but not very exciting. A man (dressed as a roman priest) said some stuff in latin and i understood!!! :)
In the evening we went on the Bazair Bath walk.

Wednesday:
Still in Bath.
Went to the East Asian Art Museum.
Went to the fasion museum, tried on a corset. managed to get my waist to about 20"!!!!! great but so painful =S
in the afternoon we went shopping =D
bought a pair of sexy black boots, a blue top, and a purple dress.
That evening we went to dinner with my mum's friend from college. i got the whole 'my you've grown'

Thursday:
Drove to Wales.
Spent the morning on Ogmore beach (my dad always went on holiday there as a child). Had an AMAZING cream tea =P
Got to my Aunts in the afternoon, saw Fergus (her English Pointer (dog))

Friday:
Went in to Cardiff.
A bit dissaponting...
Had a Chinese for dinner, twas very good.

Saturday:
Drove to Chipaham.
Met the crazyest woman ever, Trish! she told us all about Greek men, and John's numrouse girlfriends! so funni
Went to Clare and Dave's 50th Party.
Met Sophie, we managed to escape the party and watched Blade.

Sunday:
drove to Salsbury.
Chatted to my cousin Jamie who i havent seen for ages.
Spent the night at Jenny's (my aunt).

Monday:
Drove home.

xx

hummm...

do you ever wonder why people like each other?
why some people are friends, why others are more than friends?
why people dont get on?
why you worry about some people, and not others?

a piece of advice, don't. it will melt your brain!

Drama tomorow! should be good, hope all goes to plan (and joe doesnt hit me). Good Luck to everyone!!!!!!!!!!!!

luvs you all xx

ok i dont understand this, how am i turning in to hannnah?

-if im happy im being a whore, and trying to be hannah
-if im sad, im being atention seeking, and trying to be hannah.
-if im angry, im trying to be hannah

anyone thought that maybe im being me, and the reason i go to extreams sometime is im trying to be some one you all like?

or that maybe me and hannah are simlar. or maybe hannah is beeing me (she isnt obv!).

what is everyones problem, either im to hyper or im to depresed. i cant win. can you all please stop telling me im turning in to some one else.

if youve got a problem with me then bitch about me thats fine, but dont tell me im hannah. because its probably an insult to her.

and by the way you probably dont relise it but i care what all of you think of me, and non of you make being me easy.

should be doing C/W

Medge's was sooooo gd :)
we all had a laugh!

i saw greg drinking! OMJ!!!!! lol

I got biten by an evil/crazy dog!

i drank to much, i kept stealing Nick's drinks hehe!

Jazz told me i was a bad kisser, Eadie said i was a gd kisser! (game of dares) LOL

Need to do C/W but feel rough, and cba! im going to buy a hoover and then clean some stairs later!!! YAY...not
acctualy might go into town after...humm....!

xx

:)

ok i should be doing c/w but im to happy!!

just wana say that today was good! i had a proper conversation with someone i haven't talked to in ages! i've decided what to do! i managed to write an essay in one night and be complimented on it!

basically i love you all!!!!!!!! and things are going well!!!!!!!! oh and im not trying to seek attention before anyone starts bitching, im actually just happy! lol

xx

dirty poem!!!!!!!

The grey sea and the long black land;
And the yellow half-moon large and low;
And the startled little waves that leap
In fiery ringlets from their sleep,
As I gain the cove with pushing prow,
And quench its speed i' the slushy sand.

Then a mile of warm sea-scented beach;
Three fields to cross till a farm appears;
A tap at the pane, the quick sharp scratch
And blue spurt of a lighted match,
And a voice less loud, thro' its joys and fears,
Than the two hearts beating each to each!

try and make as many inuendos as you can!
now read this review:

it pays out those ls, erotic sounds that suggest lovers' kisses and, some might say lust.

the word low is perhaps a a slight joke on the subject of the poem-sexual desire-and the low people it contains.

the 'pushing prow' is phallic, as the 'slushy sand' is vaginal and the prow moves forward unimpended.

but we also at some level relise that the sae scent is salt- it's as though he can smell his sperm already staining the bedsheet, its fishy salty smell.

this is the fire of passion, the spurt of male orgasm.

this is a review by Tom Paulin he is a profeser at Oxford.


HOW DIRTY IS HIS MIND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! x

CAKE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Roses are red
Violets are blue

Sugar is sweet

and cakes are too!!!!! :)

EVERYONE SMILE CAKES ON MONDAY!!!!!!!!!! YAY

hello!

its been a while! lol

but a new school year is starting and maybe everything will go well this term. Unlikely!!

so i start year 11 single with all my friends back on speaking trems with me. And im acctualy happy!!
xx

Hannah!!

My God! Its Incredible! I cannot have even a small small bitch of quelqu' one, which would be justified perfectly, parce qu' it l' started! without people who all d' a blow obtain way implied qu' more; is necessary! In any event, I plan on making purchases with it, and that all will sort, because, like n' import which female knows, the races all solve. Thus yes, we will form soon, therefore you all can close s' you like it. Thank you.

Hannah, this makes NO sence!!!

Erm...

ok, im trying to be honest, and compleatly truthful.

im sorry.

sorry for bitching
sorry for geting annoyed
sorry for not listening
sorry for being selfcentered
sorry for... well sorry for everything.

:'(

The Boy in the Stripped Pjamas.
watch it,
if you dont cry you have a heart of stone.

easter camp!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! omg sooo much fun!

I climbed
I walked
I cycled
I caved
I rode
I surfed
I bowled
I basicly had a great time, and had loads of jokes!

Birthday!!!!!!!!!!!!

15! i dont feel any older (lol)
i got ugg boots and a BEAUTIFUL pendant with a real rosebud inside it. :)

party tomorow!

x

JC

im happy :)

i woke up today and i was happy.

i went to the shops, then as the weather was nice i walked around putnoe. it was realy quiet and warm.

SPRING IS HERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i will finaly admit that last week i was pissed off, im still not sure what about. but now im not. im just happy.

JC has been amazing and i will miss Ben, Jamie, Chazz, and all of them!!! but they deffonatly went out on a high! :)

X

adverts

i have till the 10th March to write an advert for babysitting jobs.

but what do i say???

'Hi!
I'll look after your kid...for money!!'

maybe not!
lol

I'm not sure how to sound like a sensible, responsibly 'adult'.
help please!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

x

??

OK. i want to know what you all honestly think of me. so can u all post what you think are my 2 biggest faults, and my 2 greatest assets (if i have any).
Please be truthful.
thanks!
x

AAAGGGGGHHHHH!!!!!!!!!............and breath

Do you ever find that someone who is realy close to you can piss you off more than some random dickhead?
little things that people always do which annoy you suddenly make you want to kill them!
or some thing they say makes you feel like your worthless to them, and it hurts you.

Or people try and join in with jkz their not part of. eg nicknames! it's funny when one person does it, but when you do it its just annoying!
(and i know i do this, trying to get involved in other peeps jkz)


and finaly! just because i talk to you doesnt mean im your friend! ok, thats harsh. im NOT your best friend. so not hang around me 24/7!

luckly i've had Parveen and Greg to rant with!! luv u guys!!!

and today i feel weridly calm and at peace! that sounds like im budist!! lol
i just dont care, there are bigger isuess than my little black cloud.

xx

Shopping Pictures!

Ok. These are all pictures we took whilst shopping of Wendesday.
And we need you to vote on some of them!

Can I wear pink?

Can Hannah wear yellow?

Can Hannah carry off latex?

Can Hannah wear red?

Who's legs are who's?

Please vote by leaving a comment!!!

Oh your chooses for the legs are Me, Parv, and Hannah!

xx

London!

London is soooooooo kl! But i don't think I'd want to live there!

Yesterday I went visit my brother who lives there. it was so funni! we meet him at 1.30, had eaten and had said goodbye by 2.15!
Then we went to an exhibition that he had made a model for (he's an architect).

Next we went to the Tate Modern. Did you know its an old power station! The exhibition in the main hall/space was a futuristic piece about the world in 2056. the idea was that it never stopped raining and so people sheltered in this building. there were hundreds of blue or yellow bunks, and each one had a science fiction book on it.
Also it this space were four replica sculptures. It was a bit weird!
We went round four other galleries, which were all full of pictures. mostly surrealist, cubist, and some thing else -ist! they all looked the same to me!!!

Anyway, we then got tickets for Taming of the Shrew in Lester Square. next we went to convent garden for food and watched a street entertainer balancing stuff on his face.
finally we got to the theater, our seats were AMAZING!!!! first row of the dress circle (basically the best seats you can get)!!

It was a vv good production, but i hate Kate's last speech. Were she says women should always be subservients to their husbands!

All in all a great day! But the train home was not good!

-we got a 10.48 slow train from st Pancreas. ok so far.
-at luton some chavs got on. Stupidly loud and swearing their heads off, but still ok.
-then we get told that engineers who were working on the track had blocked our track by accident. we waited for about 45mins. not good.
-then the chavs saw some guy they didn't like, and the guys wanted to go and beat him up. but the girl was like 'na, cos i'll then get beats. you don't know his people, i know his people.'
-we managed to get to flitwick. wait for about 30mins and then are told that they think the track is clear. but we may hear a loud bang which tells the driver he's hit some thing. just a little worried!

-finally we get to Bedford! its almost 1 in the morning.

x

Shopping!

Shopping is amazing!
It's also a concept that guys don't understand...so let me try and explain it to you.

basically...
-friends
-trying on clothes that you either a) like or b) think are hideous/vv funni
-LOTS and LOTS of jokes

Ok not a very male friendly explanation. let me try again...
it like if you had your mates over and you played on loads of different games. and you take the piss, and talk about girls(?), and beat each other and lose. But just have jokes.

What I'm trying to say is, its not about the cloths. Well its not ALL about the cloths. Its about having a good laugh with (and at) your mates.
shoes and dresses just help!

LOL Hanna and luv u parv!!!

x

Snow Work?!

are teachers mad????????????
today i was given snow work. So if it snows tomorow i'll have work to do.

WHY????????????

I don't understand this CRAZY consept!! Its just stupid.

LOL

Moving on...
Yesterday i found my rough book from last year. and in it there were some convosations which made me giggle...ALOT!!

It made me relize that although i've got older, i find the same stuff funny and the object may have changed but the subject i still the same!

x

Photogenic?

Im not photogenic, i have good reason to say this:
1) my left eyelid is droopy.
2) the righthand side of my smile is higher than the left.
3) i have a MASSIVE dip between my bottom lip and chin
4) i have freackles
5) im vv pale

and yet Jazz made me look vv preety in her photos today! Clever Jazz!!

We went to this photography workshop today, it was jkz. we did this stuff with lights/shadow. jazz has some of the photos on her blog! There so good, there are none of Jazz =[. probably cos i was taking them, im not a photographer. lol

Thanx Jazz their great! Oh and we saw Danni (what was happening there? jkz)

xx

Evil People

Today was brilliant!!!! Snow....Freinds.....Hannah the snowthing......RAPE......Shits & Giggles basically!!!

BUT i do have a rant!

I was walking up my road with Greg, David, Haris, and cars were driving passed. All is good it the world. The suddenly some TWAT drives passed, and drives through the slush. But NOT slush at the side of the road nooooooooooo! the slush in the MIDDLE of the road! And it COVERS me!!!!!!
The guy doesn't stop and check I'm OK, he just drives off. and I'm standing there dirty freezing cold slush all over my WHITE jumper and my new LEVI's!!!!!!!!!!!

HOW INCONSIDERATE!!!

xx

Pictures of SNOW!!

PREETY!!!!!!

xx

SNOW!!!! cont.

today was sooooooooooooooo funny!
had a snowball fight with Greg, David, Freddie, and Matt Haris!

http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=593433087#/profile.php?id=832712766&ref=mf for greg's videos!

then when we were back at mine David nearly shocked us all:

David- 'Its really hot in here'

Me- 'take off ur your jumper then'

David- 'No, I'll take off my trousers'

Me- 'WTF!?'

Greg- 'he's wearing trackys under his' jeans!'

Me 'Thank God!'

SOOOO funni! (OH the snowman is called Geffory and he seems to now be doing the limbo) LOL

I have just read 6 blogs about SNOW!

snow makes all under the age of 18 act like 3 year olds. But everyone over 30 HATES snow..... why??????????????
Miss Newton was in such a bad mood just because it was snnowing and we found that more intresting than a story in latin about an actor and a dwarf!

snow is amazing!

i'll write more later
x

family

so last week at school my little brother had to write down 5 facts about his family. there were the normal ones 'i have two sisters and a brother', 'we live in Bedford', that kind of stuff. but the last one was 'my parents are a couple'.

and it got me thinking, that realy says something about devorce rates if a 10 yr old thinks that there perants beeing (or not beeing) together is on the same level as how many siblings you have.

im not saying devorce is wrong and im not trying to be high and mighty because mine are still together, but i just don't get it.
i just dont yet how people can say the vow 'till death do us part' and then get devorced. No i understand it more than that, i relise people change, values change (i dont think you can understand unless it happens to you).

i dont think i could cope without one of my perants, they realy the two sides of the same coin. my mum is the angry, impulsive, can be vv funny & my dad is interlectual, calm, vv witty.
they couldnt live without the other one.

This week

I would just like to apologies to everyone (especially Parv and Greg) this week for:
-having no social life (due to drama)
-Massive mood swings (due to good or bad rehearsals)
-Bitching way to much ( mostly drama related)
-swearing (not due to drama i just do it to much)

I promise that from Wednesday morning i will be happy all week, try and sort out everyone's problems, and swear less.


and i would like to invite all of you to come and see our drama pieces on Tuesday from 10:35-11:15. (and none of you are seeing it before then os please dont try and come to our rehearsals, because it get slows us down and we wount let you watch)!
but you have to sit at the back and NOT LAUGH (Jazz & Jack).


=]

It could be worse...

It could be worse.... you could be a slug!
I mean;
you look like a turd,
your covered in slime,
all you do is drag your own rancid body along, looking for cabbage.
that's all you do

'have you seen any cabbage Dave?'
'no i haven't Allen'
Oh well, onwards in my quest for cabbage. Oh no! I've got gravel on my belly.'

I mean THAT'S depressing. You can't even cry, if you do the tears will melt your face.

this is curtsy of Russell Howard on live at the Apollo.

this made me laugh properly for the first time in aaggeeesssssss! he had just given a speech on how we all moan too much. And i no I'm guilty of this, so I'm sorry to everyone I've moaned at.
Oh and thank you!

... explained (sort of)

i feel i should explain the post below.

i was told something realy bad, and it reminded me of something even worse.
and i just started writing all the stuff i couldn't fit in my head anymore.
any answers or thoughts would be wellcome, please just comment.
xx

...

AAAAAGGGGGGHHHHHHHH...............

isn't it strange how your mood can change because of one word?

isn't it weird that when your friends are most happy you can be the most sad?

why does everyone answer 'im fine' when asked how they are?

whats the point?

where do we all go?

how should i explain?

what if i mess up?

the only way to live is to live by the moment, but then what happens tomorow?

how do you mesure beauty?

what is beauty?

which maters; what you say or what you mean?

nature or nurture?

alls fair in love and war?

what is love?

will i ever understand?

will it ever stop?

is there a god?

is religion good?

does it mater as long as your a good person?

what makes you a good person?

am i a good person?

will he get better?

what happens when we die?

WHY??????????

Peeps!

I promised Parveen I'd write a blog all about her. well I'm to lazy to do that so:
PARVEEN I LUV U (IN THAT WAY) (ITS NOT RAPE) (SMARTIE COOKIES) (DEVIL FORKS) (DEPONENT VERBS)

there i cba to do more!

loads of people have written about friends, i feel like i should do one. But i cant describe any of you in the right way every time i started writing it sounded silly, because it didn't show what i really felt.

isn't that weird I'm normally to loud yet when it comes to stuff close to my heart i just cant explain! (how cheesy is that?!)

all i can say is that like Hannah i would take a bullet for any of you and not regret it, you mean so much to me and without you guys I'd probably be like Megan or Erin (what an awful thought....we should be nicer to them)

Oh and Parv peanut oil! (dw its a lesbian jk......i have too many of these....i am straight)

Expectations

im everyone has been writing realy deep blogs about growing up.
so i felt i had to join in:

my life has a plan which im expected to follow:
-pass GCSEs
-pass A-Levels
-(maybe a gap year)
-uni
-job
-husband
-kids
-retire
-grandchildren
-die


this sounds pretty boring, but its the 'perfect' life. the model we should 'want' to folow.
well..... my problem is that after GCSEs i dont know what i want to do.

some friends know what they want to do, others know an area they want to go into.

but me. i have no idea.

i used to want to be an actress, but i dont
then it was a doctor, but i dont
then a medic in the army, but i dont

now all i want is to get away from my perants.

but if you look at my perants they've maneged so much:
-i mean my dad went to Oxford
-there first home was a narow boat
-my mum stopped working when Hugh was born (she was midd 20s)
-my dad retired at 40
-4 children all through privete schooling
-a large house with no morgage
-we used to have a second house in Norfok aswell.

this sounds like braging, but its not its fact. And the worrying thing is i dont think i can acheive the same and that scares me.
I my complain about my life, but i have never been in need, i've never gone hungry, i've never been thirsty.
and one day sooner that it seems i'll have to provide for myself, and i don't know if i can.

I wouldn't say i have everything i want but have everything i need.

and my brother and sister are doing the right thing because their brillant.

Hugh (21):
got a one one for his achitecture part one. now working in London.
traveled all over the world. apliying to spend a year in Japan at uni, before copleating his achitecture degree.
Perfect.

Clarie(19):
at York st.Jonh's doing OT (same as mum my). spent most of last year in Mexico with gides.
Perfect

so im expected to follow. but how?
im not like either of them.....their both close to our perants im not.

i used to talk to my mum so she'd notice me not Claire. but now Claire's at uni she EXPECTS me to tell her about every aspect of my life. The problem is i don't want to any more.

so theirs a cold-war between us. (but thats another blog)

The whole point of this blog is im not sure i can (or want to) live up to expectations.

boys

Ok i havent writen for aaaaaggggeeeeeessssssss!!!!!!

I LOVE TWILIGHT!!!!!!!!! He is SO fit!!!!! it is such a good film!!!!!! I need to find the book now!!!!!!!!

right thats my girly rant over, now i will have a more sophisticated rant!

last night i was with a friend (Memory Keeper), and we made a list of tips for blokes. This got me thinking about relationships.
i love all my friends, but i also love that closeness you feel when your with someone.

the way there's someone who knows all about you, you dont have to be garded around, you can just be you and feel how you want.
friends are great but you sometimes have to hid your feelings for thier sake, and they do the same for you.

where as with a boyfriend you can be just who you are and not worry that they wount like you for it. because if they didn't they wouldnt be there.

but being single is great to, you can flirt, joke with everyone, talk about fit guys and not worry,
spent lots of time with girl friends.

I think to mose important points on our list where:
1) You have to be my bestfriend and boyfriend
2)a long walk hand in hand is more romantic than something expencive
3)my girl friends will always be THE most important
4) i have a brain, im not an object

when i find a guy who understands all of these, and understands me, then i'll have found my perfect boyfriend.

in the meantime, i'll keep playing matchmaker!! and people(ie Jazz) should take my advise quicker!

Fat?!

First day back at school! YAY.....or not!
actually school was ok. I beat Hutty at pool (he didn't let me win or anything).

I said this wouldn't be self centered, but I'm going to rant about my mother now so....... Oh well!

This morning i put sugar on my Special K
and my mum went 'If you put sugar on your ceals you'll get fat'
I was like 'What?!'
she said 'you should have an egg and some fruit, it would be much healthier'

an EGG and some FRUIT!!!!!!!!!!!!

I mean wtf!
1)wouldn't that make me fatter (also a weird combination?!)
2)I hadn't realised my weight was such an issue!

I have just weighed myself I'm 52Kg (8stone 2pounds) is that fat??????
i didn't think it was but to my mother (who isn't exactly small) it obviously is!

Oh well..... I can't do diets so I'll just have to be disgustingly huge!

so I want a poll here (and be truthful) everybody please comment with your weight and what you eat for breakfast!

I read back through my blog today and relised how self centered it is.

so im gona try and write about more important things than snow/partys/my life.
each week i will:
-Give an intresting quote
-write a blog about something in the news
-reviw a book/film/play/tv program
-write about other people (ie friends)

so this is no longer a blog about me, its a blog about my world!

Oh and Jazz & Jack :) thehe
luv u guys

SNOW!!!!

Ok..... i love snow as much as anyone else, but at 8.17 it has less apeal. I didnt have to get up this morrning till 9.30 at the earlist, so when mum woke me up i was not in the best mood.

Anyway what i wanted to say was that snow is weird. I mean its solid rain. And if you think about it commen sence would make you dislike it, its cold and wet. yet the moment it starts to snow you're expected to leap out of bed. Still i suppose its because we dont get snow very often in this country.

Adults

Why do adults seem to be surprised that people grow taller?

My parents had a party last night, so i shut myself in the playroom with my laptop and the TV on. And every time an adult came in to drop off their coat they said 'haven't you grown?' or 'last time i saw you you were this high' or some useless comment on the fact that i was curled up with my laptop and the TV. One women came in and said 'oh! Who's winning?' i was like 'what?!'. Apparently it was a joke cos she thought i was playing a computer game. It wasn't funny!!!!!

I ended up watching What Women Want (Mel Gibson) such a good film. Its was funny though cos i was watching it with my sister, 2 of her friends (both female), and her boyfriend. And he didn't understand the film in the same way as we all did.
I have to say that it is a brilliant film, SO Hilarious!!!!!!

Sorry

last night Freddie text me, i can't realy explain what happened, but i ended up crying.

I just want to say that i have the best friends in the whole world. they stand by me even when im being a bitch, they never seem to give up on me. I love them all so much and im sorry to every one i've pissed off or been a bitch to this week. Freddie, Jazz, Hannah and Hutty!

And every one i haven't pissed of this week i love you guys aswell and im sorry for all evil things i've done in the last year, all the times i've said mean things i didnt mean any of them.

and i promise this year i'll listen to you guys more cos u are all better at looking out for me than i am. But i also promise i will be bossy, tell u what to do and think i know best (although i probably don't) cos thats just me!

2009

ok. Things i will do in 2009:

1)Be a better friend, bitch less.

2)Find a nice boyfriend, who doesnt turn out to be a idiot (don't kiss Matt again).

3)Read more intelctualy challenging books, and less teen fiction.

4)Get fit. (will walking to school work?)

5)Tidy my room once a week.

6)learn to touch type.

7)Eat less sugar, and eat more friut.

8)Save money.

9)clear out wardrobe and buy nicer clothes (less from primark)

10)Do something for someone else.

If i do all of this by 2010 i will be a better person who has contributed to society. But the chances of me doing any of this is depressingly low!

Party!!

Hutty's was jokes.
But i was a bit of an idiot! i started talkin to Matt and ended up curling up with him. Then we kissed, but i did stop and leave, cos i dont want to get back with him.
I think i did it cos i felt a bit alone. I mean Hannah and david were together (vv good thing... he's been trying it get with her since the end of the summer) and Jazz and Pooley were together (also vv good... to much history to explain) and then it was me on my own. So i gess i just wanted to feel wanted like they were.